Week 7

Just like that I finished my seventh week here in Barcelona. I am convinced I was having a diva melt down last week, as I am re-read my blog post for last week and feel quite different this week. After accepting the fact that it is completely normal to feel uneasy during my time here, I feel as if I am going to have the toughest time now accepting this feeling this sadness about leaving.

This week alone, has completely shifted my emotions and I can honestly say I DO NOT WANT TO LEAVE. This summer has been absolutely incredible and I cannot imagine leaving all of the people I have met just quite yet. I looked into changing my flight (just in case) and unfortunately United is forcing me to leave in one week exactly. While I felt extremely ready to pack up and leave exactly one week ago, I feel the exact opposite and I am unsure why. Probably because reality hit me like a truck, and it’s beginning to settle in that I will be leaving and not returning any time soon.

I am going to miss the daily heat strokes, the tapas, the Castellano and Catalan chattering, the metro, and the ever so crowded streets of the city. Most of all, I think I am going to miss the slower lifestyle that makes it feel as if time is an illusion, something I have not ever felt back home. I love it here so much and all that it has to offer. I feel so accustomed to waking up here daily and not necessarily having any sense of direction, it is truly an amazing feeling.

I am excited to return, but as the days go by, I am becoming less excited to leave my new home! I tend to suppress my emotions very well (as I hate dealing with them) but I am pretty sure I might cry my eyes out leaving. It is so strange feeling this rollercoaster of emotions being here, I cannot say I have felt so up and down in such a short period of time ever in my life. This makes me think that I am doing something right though! I am beyond content that I made this decision to come here as it is the best thing I have done for myself thus far. Being here, and traveling else where has really opened up my mind to the fact that we are so tiny compared to this massive beautiful world. I would never change my positive and negative experiences here for anything.

These past seven weeks have been absolute craziness. Nothing will compare to my time spent here, and as these days go by I am struggling to imagine no longer waking up here every day. I have learned more about myself these past two months than I think I would have otherwise. As I settle into my last week here, I begin to prioritize my time and how I choose to spend it. Most of all, I hope to leave on a high note. Whatever that may be, I cannot wait to see what is in store these next few days!